• Erotic Musings

    I’ve Stopped Masturbating: Week 4

    If you told me five years ago that in 2020 I’d stop masturbating, and stop feeling like I had to masturbate, I would have laughed in your face. If you’d have told me three years ago that by stopping masturbating, I’d have more orgasms, I’d have spent an hour trying to work out the logic behind that. If you’d have…

  • Musings,  Personal

    I’ve Stopped Masturbating: Week 1

    Even if I wanted to masturbate this week, there was no absolutely way it was going to happen. There’s been a heavy fog over me this past week, and we all know why that is. *heavy sigh* To combat the fog (different from my ‘normal’ exhaustion fog) I’ve been pushing back at it by keeping my body and mind busy…

  • Musings,  Personal,  Sex & Disability

    I’m scared to masturbate.

    First off, whilst there was a period of body enforced orgasm denial, I'm happy to report it's at an end! Since my last post, my body cooperated enough to have sex, and 2 blissful orgasms. Unsurprisingly, I also spent the rest of the day recovering. Now, let's dive into the apparent mental orgasm denial I've gotten myself into.Here's the thing,…

  • Musings,  Personal,  Sex & Disability

    Relearning how to masturbate

    Just before falling from the precipice of orgasm there’s a single minded focus that comes from the build up of pleasure that is both delightful, and frantic. The holding of breath, tensing of muscles, and urgency of movement is because your body takes over, whilst the mind shuts down. The pleasure demands to be fulfilled through release.

  • Erotic Musings,  Musings,  Personal

    That One Fantasy

    That One Fantasy There’s always that one fantasy – my go-to, that gets me off. Sure, there are other fantasies in my brain, and variations of those fantasies that I drift to from time to time. But for the most part, I know that my old dependable fantasy will get me off. I know how to stretch it out with…

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